this very moment.

RIGHT NOW I'M

Taking quite a fancy to google's current homepage image:

Listening to... Something good can work - Two Door Cinema Club

Fending ssssleep. Who know's why. PROCRASTINATION!?

Wondering what on earth I need for tax tomorrow ><"

Wishing I had freckles :3. The real deal. They ARE cute. This never quite occured to me? I littered my face with brown and pink texta ones for a halloween party I attended this evening. 

GUESS WHAT I AM ;O

costume credits:

polo + tie - brother

denim shorts - mother

suspenders - shelly

THANKS SO MUCH ;D 

 Snapped after teh partyy. Original nerd glasses (in-cinema 3d-turned 4d glasses) I initially posessed currently remain in the grasp of Libra Pad Man.... These are my precription reading ones. . . xD

yeah cool exiting now before I feel overly camwhore'd and delete.

BAIIIIIIIIIIIIGAIIIIIZ HAPPY WEEKEND AND ALL THE BEST WITH FINALLLLLLZZRAWRR!

xxooxxoo. etcetera.

<3

8)Nerdiam.

/Geekiam!?!

VOTE!!?

she loves me, she loves me not

something had changed in the air,

his gaze held, steady; a poignant stare

prior it seemed, he had never noticed

the curl of her lip, the scent of her hair

                          . . .

though subtle, something in her sensed 'friends' was now blurred

his vision had distorted, 

he claimed it was his heart she stirred

whenever did this come about?

how did it occur?

her cheeks flushed, flattered; crimson burned

...for she knew...
the affection he offered could not be returned

Track 3

3:55
4:04

4:15

mmmmiriam.

Mother Goose...

 Third the Golden Princess

Second the best,

First the worst,

...she tells the truth

I'm not bitter,

It's just the way it is.

Or is that really my downfall?

Ignorance.

Dream, Dreamer.

A ship on a voyage could sink in the deep,
A ship in the shallow could crack on the reef,
But only ashore is it safe where it is built
And only ashore is it useless..

Imagine the world without romance,
Imagine the world without music,
Imagine the world without someone imagining.

Dream, dreamer
d r  e   a   m

A dreamer sees a wall that holds us where we are,
And sees it a worthy ladder to climb.
If man would not ever have noticed the sky,
The ground might have seemed unscalable.

Imagine the world without romance,
Imagine the world without music,
Imagine the world without someone imagining.

Dream, dreamer
d r  e   a   m

Jesus, be my rudder, the wind within my sail,
I cannot make myself pretend to be afraid to fail.
Take me past familiar waters, to a place so deep,
It reserves itself for the eyes of those who dream.

Imagine the world without romance,
Imagine the world without music,
Imagine the world without someone imagining.


Dream, dreamer
   . . . d   r   e   a   m

-GS Megaphone

Monster.

I forget he's human sometimes.

This frightens me slightly.

Stagnant.

-Yesterday-

[ipod]

So here I am. 5pm train express to Beenleigh from Park Road, stopping only at Coopers Plainz.. Or something.
And apparently awake. Yes. Awake, as compared to just moments ago nodding off not at all subtley in the Archi Library. Or prior to that in my Editing & Scripting lecture...before Ashley saved me with a crossword puzzle...xD Not to mention on the train to uni this morning.. Went a little bit like nod...nod...zzzz- BOOM!  How on earth did my umbrella meet the floor? *props it back up*... nods...nods...nods... Zzzzz.....zzzzzzzz.......zzzzzz- Clunk! The floor wants to start an affair with my already tattered mobile phone now? *sighs, picks it up* struggles to stay awake as the last four stops pass me by before reaching Park Road.
Point is: Why is it, that while so many around me struggle to catch zzz's, I can do so anywhere, at anytime. Especially in this weather of late!

I just want to study! Really I do.. Well. At least my conscious tells me so. With just 3 weeks til final swatvac 2010 I should be a little more than concerned, because despite the cool news that I've no exams this term, it only means all my assessment is due BEFORE that time. Which really should be more of a jab in the gut than a shrug of the shoulders and an f5 of Facebook Newsfeeds. -____-.

What I am trying to say here is, where did all that motivation go? Where did all that persistence, that passion, that want seep to?
After the passing of Monica, and more recently, also 19 year old Jeffwin (please keep them and their families in your thoughts and prayers,) the whole "life is precious, don't waste a second" concept has been reinforced pretty strongly...
It's not something that avidly consumes my mind, but it's there in my mind, bubbling, rising to the surface now and then.

I just don't want to feel like I'm wasting my time! And it's so hypocritical of me to say so (see earlier fb reference), but yes. I want to be doing something I LOVE. and LOOK FORWARD to with each passing day.
I don't know if journalism's doing that for me right now.

Perhaps take an art course? In painting or drawing?
A music course? And resume all the instruments I used to take?

Half of me thinks, "well, it's just another two years..." and the other half of my brain says, that's potentially two years wasted!"

And then brain says that its a phase, of COURSE things will pick up.

Maybe Video Journalism, Editing and Scripting this semester just aren't as suited to me as Writing and Design were last semester.

Amidst all this.. I think of the Stars of the Interwebz whom I especially admire of late.
Let's narrow 'Interwebz' to 'Youtube' and I'll give you my two muses of the now:
nigahiga and ClaraC.

I'm not toooo sure entirely what it is about them that appeals to me, but I've put it down to the fact  that...
a) I can identify with them by being a non caucasian raised in a caucasian country, so their huge success alone, is beating a gazillion odds = it IS possible for an asian face to make tracks in a 'blue eyed, fair-haired' country
b) They have the guts and self faith, trust to run with what they have -their God-given talents- and do for the sake of doing, despite what others might think!

yay, inspiration. winspiration. wewww!

I'm not even too sure where I am running with this. Maybe just highlighting the fact that I feel like I'm sort of going nowhere at the moment... gahh so frustrating!
----

In other news, I had lunch in the city with Danni today <3.
Pieface!!! Tried the steak infused/injected with cheese pie.
$4.95 and taste-wise DEFINITELY worth it.
Chunky, real steak pieces in a not-too-thick-not-too-thin gravy, the cheese infusion not overwhelmingly cheesey or salty, either. I didn't even feel inclined to add sauce it was THAT good. (:
Unfortunately we didn't photograph this event...TAKE ME OUT AND SEE IT HAPPEN IRL ;L!?! <3

We also went all out and bought a tenpack of Hello Pandas <3.
I fear I'll become the size of one once it's consumed -_____-!!
Bumped into Jon, Carlos, Willus, Sarah, Venetia, Remmi and yeah. People also.
An eventful day out (:

NOW BACK TO WORK....?! D;

Pray for me..

 <3 Mizz...zzz....zzzz...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Hah |:

blogdate.

Marvel Marvellers, this will be long and scattered. But having not properly posted for what, two months, IT'S HIGH TIME. That was your official warning btw.



August...

IKEA Reppin @ EKKA <3.
Leroy <3.

'Miriam' By Leroy, aged 5, Melbourne

I met a boy whilst manning the colouring-in stall sponsored by IKEA. (Which was SO much fun 8)!!) He was awfully cute. Spoke Mandarin and is GREAT at drawing. I wish he let me keep his underwater one. This will have to suffice.  His name is Leroy. And this is his rendition of me. He's 5 years old and was up from Melbourne with his parents, who were selling kites at the show. 

Here's my impression of him:

Egad. His eyelashes look rather pronounced? Blaming the scanner for this one.

Nothing will compare to him in real life though! <3

Speaking of drawings...

is what I got up to tonight.. amidst study for Chinese Written.. and maybe a few text messages..:P

 me reminding me what studying looks like?

This is what happened last time I sat down to study on that dining table. It was productive, I promise!

YUP. So much so, I even managed to tie up my first lolly snake ever. with my TONGUE. CHYEAH! ;D

Speaking of study...

With love from Hong Kong, Sabrina. Who be studying in Beijing right now.

 MISSING YOU MUCHLY, DEAR.

SCATTERBRAIN.

 on: People who you see around, but don't know the names of...

He greeted me with a smile.
Hidden behind stylish, square frames,
his eyes met mine.
quickly. sincere. laced with a shy edge,

they dart back down to the counter between us, as he settles my transaction.
I've seen him once, twice, thrice. more.
He wished me a good day.
a good tiding I do not recall from our last encounter.
Perhaps he remembers me now.
To me he is nameless.
To him I am but s4205569.


 on: establishing new friendships

I realise now thet'll be sticking around for a while yet.
They're not too serious, but know when they have to be.
They make my day THAT much more bearable and worthwhile.
We can spend time seperately, yet not grow apart.
Easy. Free. Unconditional.
Reciprocal.
I LOVE it.


on: Body Art, Inky Ink!

Thank you. Train rides have now reached new heights lolol.

More to come. Don't know where the pics have been saved >.



on: Charice on Glee!



...and then my sister and I sort of went a little fangirl <3333.....

on: Unrequited Love (?)

can't boys and girls just be friends without the whole ithinkilikeyou..morethanfriends business?
I understand it may come across as a little selfish, but we're already having fun, enjoying each others' company as it is. And I like how we are. And I don't want that to change. I like the fact that remaining like this, the way we are right now, means both our hearts can remain intact and NOT potentially smithereens of smithereens.
You're my FRIEND.
I don't wanna hurt you.
EVER. Especially if it's avoidable.
That is all,
Love,
Me.


on: Late Submissions

Guilty.
So very, very guilty on this one.
let it be said, I'm horribly disorganised and prone to large bouts of  procrastination.
I've managed to pass everything thus far this semester. Yet I feel like such a failure.
I'm as last minute as ever and can see it potentially hurting me now. In a big way.
3 weeks to go and I've not an exam. Which means EVERYTHING WILL BE DUE WITHIN THESE THREE WEEKS.
CUE: STRESS.
I guess after last semester's surprisingly surprising GPA.. I thought I could get the same this semester with same effort? eh. No such luck... And only I can help myself out of this. Ergh.
Precedents schmecedents.
Who needs education?! 


on: mutual reciprocation.

I'm a firm believer in giving out what you'd like to get returned.
It works both ways.
If my actions 'contradict' this.
It's most likey because I'm applying this to what I'm receiving.
And playing mirror.


on: midsem break.

STEPHY.myplace.bunkbeds.city.southbank.westend.markets.cinemas.shopping.movieworld.mtcootha.3monkeys.fishandchips.manvswild.moviemarathon.trains.adventures.pizza.friends.ella.romnick.erik.cafes.chilling.dressingup.singalongs.bliss.perfection.

And that's all for now, folks?
Sheesh, it's close to 3am.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
HAPPY 10/10/10 MY FRIENDS <33

MIZZ.

COS YOU'RE WORTH IT. Truly <3.

Hey kiddies, just remember!!

..words from the wise yeah? 8)

<3. ALWAYS!!

YOURS TRULY.

:D

So all you frowny people, who I love and adore. Don't let gravity get 'chu down yeah? Seriously I cannot have the loves an' lights and sweets and inspirations of my life be dimming and flickering! (Though, it does make me a million appreciate the times when your batteries are full and your cheeks are glowing with a killerwat/kilowatt smile!)

CHIN UPPPPPPPPPPP.

Lean on me

When you're not strong

I AM your friend

I'll help you carrryyyyyy awwwnnnn.

Yeah!

No mizztakin'!

lover you all.

x

-

PS: sxc, I'm okay.

stop being such a sillyhead about sheit already mang!

let's apologise and forgive and forget and crap and resume rebuild this friendship.

Easier said than done but hey.

If we really believe we've been absent from each other's lives for too long.

this hurdle can be jumped, easy!

It can happen.

Well, if you wanna.

Just say when.

lolzor.

^___^